So this week has been a challenge – which apparently is to be expected of week 3 as the boredom of drinking 2 milkshakes and eating 2 bars sets in…
It was also a challenge which I failed a little. As a reminder it’s really important on Lighter Life that you stick to the diet – and don’t eat ANYTHING else – you are not even allowed sugar free chewing gum.
So the reason I failed this week is because I have eaten a little food – a couple of slices of bread and a little taste of the food I was cooking for the family on Saturday and Sunday. It’s not the end of the world and it’s not like I’ve been on a binge, but it’s still a little frustrating and disappointing.
The worse thing about the above though is that I kept it very secretive – eating the bread when Lindsey was in the other room and hoping not to get “caught”. It’s something that to anyone who hasn’t had weight problems may sound ridiculous. So in class tonight I admitted this and we talked a little about what might have caused me to act in this manner.
My weight really starting to increase when I was at school – I was bullied and pretty much hated my life so took to comfort eating. I think this is when I started to become a bit of a “secret” eater – climbing up on the sides to reach the crisps that my parents had stored on top of a cupboard when they were not looking and eating them as quick as possible so that nobody would notice for example… again this sounds stupid and ridiculous but I think I carried on with this for most of my life – something that I know needs to stop.
Another thing that I need to do this week is get rid of the scales in the house. Whenever I am trying to lose weight I end up getting quite obsessive with checking my weight and have been doing so pretty much 4 or 5 times a day recently – which I don’t think is helping at all. I’ve asked Lindsey to either hide the scales or just get rid of them completely which I think will help as they don’t necessarily match the ones that we have at group and this just makes things worse!
So all in all it was a pretty intense class and left me feeling quite emotional… but there is some good news..
Despite the slight fall of the wagon I have continued to shed some weight this week – another 5lb which brings my weight loss across three weeks to 26lb. This means I am just 2lb away from the 2 stone mark and have hit the second target that I set! So here is an update on the targets:
Target 1 – Lose 14lb (1 stone) – Reward – Destiny for Xbox One – DONE
Target 2 – Lose 25lb – DONE
Target 3 – Lose 35lb
Target 4 – Lose 50lb
Target 5 – Lose 70lb
Target 6 – Lose 85lb
Target 7 – Lose 100lb
Target 8 – Loose 110lb
FINAL GOAL – Lose 115lb (8st 2lb) – Reward – Wedding Ring
PROGRESS: 26lb gone – 89lb to go (22.61% gone)
The other positive this week is that I’ve started to actual notice the weight loss a lot more.. mainly around my face and chest rather than my gut – which means that top buttons on shirts are actually doing up and my suit jacket no longer seems to feel (and show) the strain of not really fitting as well as it should.
This week I have a few challenges ahead – starting with attending an event tonight in an executive box at Selhurst Park to see Palace vs. Newcastle. It’s organised by Affiliate Window – one of our suppliers – and everyone else will be eating a 3 course meal and drinking before kick off I suspect. Then at the weekend it is Kieran’s 12th birthday where we will either be doing a BBQ or getting a takeout for him and a couple of his mates and I’ll obviously have to avoid the birthday cake!
Hopefully the renewed faith in my will power and ability to succeed in this challenge will help me reach a good number for weight loss this week – with the target to make it over the 30lb mark and bringing my weight closer to being it’s lowest for the past 10 years.